Chapter 87

Jon pulled up only to find her waiting for him on the patio. She looked so small and vulnerable, almost frail but he refused to soften towards her. He had still some issues to work through and it could take some time. Richie had a long chat with him the previous night but not too long after that did the wine kick in and he got lost in his own thoughts. Richie knew Jon and his broody moods, so he gave it up and just stayed with him enjoying his own glass of wine.

He was so lost in thought that he jumped when Megan’s soft voice greeted him.

She didn’t dare meet his gaze, not that she could see anything with his ever present shades.

“Mornin’, am I late or you early?”

“No you are on time actually.”

She scooted to her corner of the car and didn’t say much.

Tension was so thick in the air that Jon felt himself choke.

His hand raked through his wet hair, his tongue moistening his lips giving them an inviting look.

“I still can’t believe I’m a dad of an eight year old. Fuck Megan! Why did you do this?”

Anger simmered inside her.

“It almost sounds like it’s a problem to you, being a father…”

His head jerked towards her and the car swerved dangerously.

“What did you say? Trying to turn it on me now? Sorry darlin’ that wont fly. YOU had my baby and YOU neglected to tell me. So YOU are in the wrong not me. I just cant believe that you denied me eight years of my son’s life! I don’t know him. All I know he loves horses because the damn thing almost killed him.”

“It was an accident! White Blaze didn’t do shit! Accidents happen.”

“Yeah and this would be the only time I would be greatfull for this accident, otherwise I would still be uninformed about my son’s existence.”

“I told you I wanted to tell you that night! DAMMIT Jon! Are you going to hate me forever? I know I was wrong for not telling you but hell just think how I felt when I found out I was pregnant?! “

Her words seemed to have calmed him down a bit, he bit his lip in thought.

“Did you ever considered having an abortion?” he was watching the road.

She almost snapped her head off, the gasp she uttered stole her breath from her lungs.

“The easy way out huh Jon? You bastard!! Let me out! I’ll walk to the hospital. You dont have to ever see him again. How could you be so heartless after you’ve seen him?!”

The brakes slammed and a few cars hooted, the drivers swinging their fists telling him what an asshole he was, but his eyes were trained on the women next to him. He threw his shades onto the dashboard, grabbing her and yanking her towards him violently, their noses almost touching, his sparking eyes burning into her soul.

“Calm the fuck down women! For fuck’s sake. I was trying to imagine being in your shoes, not blaming or insinuating that you had to get an abortion! I admire the hell out of ya for NOT getting one. Do you know how many girls of that age would have gotten one and just forget about it? You stood through it, even had the guts to raise him yourself, and might I say you did a hell of a job.”

Her breathing slowed and she felt his hands slack as she calmed down. Her heaving breasts caught his eyes. He always had expressive eyes and by now they were a strange aqua blue. His words washed over her like a refreshing wave. He thought she was brave to keep him and thought she did a great job….thank the Lord! She did something right in his eyes!

Tears gathered in her eyes.  Admiration for her grew in leaps and bounces inside his gut.

What did she go through all these years? How did she manage a baby and her studies? Hell this woman is unbreakable! He felt the need to gather her close, but her body pulled back and he let her go. She wasn’t ready for any affection from him yet, that’s ok.

They drove in silence towards the hospital. There were still so much to be said but now they had to get their emotions under control for Jaden’s sake.

“Well here we are.” The car came to a halt.

“Shall we go in?”

She didn’t wait for him. Just walked on, knowing that he would catch up soon. He didn’t catch up and when she turned her head to look down the hallway, there was no sign of him.