Chapter 159

She stiffened but didn’t move away. He didn’t let her.

“But how?”

“I saw the test in the waste basket the morning I left.”

She quivered against him. He knew! All these weeks, he knew and he didn’t say a word!

“I wanted to tell you before you left but you didn’t wake me up  and…” she hastily explained.

His rumble was lost in her hair. She could feel him smile .

“Sssshhhh…calm down. I know you wanted to tell me. I realized it when I saw the test. You tried to tell me remember? I wouldn’t let you.”

She gave a huge sigh and thanked the gods for his understanding.

His laughter died and felt his shoulder squared. Fingers tipped her chin upwards and she almost stopped breathing. How could someone’s eyes have such a devastating effect?

“I wanted to wake you but I was scared shitless to what you might say to me. I ran away not you.”

“Jon?”

He stopped her, he had to tell her how he feels before she tells him the baby’s paternity!

“Please Meg..please hear me out before you say anything?”

She nodded, her gaze unmoving. The look of desperation changed his eyes to massive blue pools. His hands squeezed hers painfully.

Slipping his hand from hers he ventured towards her tummy, stroking lightly over the unborn baby inside. Going down on his knees he kept her gaze locked with his.

“ Meg, I love you. I love you , I’m in love with you. I cant breathe, sleep or live without you. I don’t want to live without you and even if you tell me this is not mine…” he kissed the gentle swell.

“I’ll be ok with it. I will love this  baby just as my own. Just please stay with me, be with me and I’ll love you till the day we die. I cant promise that it will always be easy. It wont. If you stay with me, you’ll have to deal with Dorothea. She and the baby is my responsibility now and I will never neglect any child I fathered. But I cant be with her, I don’t love her. I should have never slept with her but I was drunk and going insane, thinking you might be in Jason’s arms, making love to him. I know that’s no excuse but baby I need you. Only you baby, please tell me one thing… Do you love Jason? Or are you in love with him. Because I can make you love me. I can love enough for both of us. Just give us a chance…just one and I’ll make you so happy. I promise.”

His rollercoaster speech came to a halt and he took a few much needed breaths. His hands held her captive, his face pleading in silence. Did he even register the tears coasting down his face?

Megan shook her head slightly. Jon looked like he was going to faint at that moment.

“Jon….”

He couldn’t  look her in the eyes when she kicks him in the gut. He wrapped his arms around her waist, leaning his head against her stomach, reminding himself to breathe, waiting for her answer.

He was actually shaking like a leave. Raking her hands gently through his hair she whispered just loud enough for him to hear.

“I don’t love Jason. I’m not in love with him. I never was. He is a wonderful man and he would make some woman a wonderful husband one day.”

He looked up at her with tearblinded eyes, a shadow of a smile pulled at his lips.

“As for the baby…”

“I’ll love the baby. I swear Meg. I don’t care.”

Two fingers silenced his rambling.

“You better love it because its yours…”

Jon’s face went blank for a moment. As the words filtered into his mind he stood up ever so slowly.

Her smile turned the darkness into day, the coolness into a warm summer’s day.

“Mine? Oh God! The baby is mine oh baby….” He groaned as if in pain. Mountains of lead shed from his shoulders and the future didn’t look so bleak anymore.

He crushed her in his arms, hijacking her lips with such force she was sure he just split her lips.

His kiss was pure raw hunger and want, his tongue plundered , his hands gripped and kneaded. Suddenly it changed to a slow, warm loving kiss. His grip slacked, his hands gentled in her hair, stroking as desire spiraled.

He broke the kiss but moved only a fraction so that his words breathed against her lips.

“You just made me the happiest man on the face of the earth, you know that?”

“Well….” She tapped his jaw.

“I didn’t say I love you yet.”

His tongue darted out, playing with her lower lip. She didn’t need to say it, it was etched in her eyes like stars.

“It’s the rock star in me I guess. I just presume things and baby I told you before. I love you and I will never let you go. If you run, I’ll hunt you down.” He growled to bring it home.

“Oh wow, now I’m being threatened.” She laughed, her heart was so full at the moment she thought it might burst.

“You better remember that. You are mine now and forever.”

There was no use for words anymore, their bodies said it all.