Chapter 234

Long after the laughter had died down, Megan still found herself snuggling on his warmth. Her finger traced the wanted tattoo’s outline, while her hair flowed over the other shoulder.

Feeling his lips moved in her hair, he asked.

“What you thinking about?”

“Oohh nothing.” She moved slightly, adjusting herself to get comfortable again.

His hands danced up and down her spine, she felt all mushy and lazy after their heated lovin’.

“Jon?”

It took a while before she heard the slight…”hhhmm?”

“Can I call our parents to come over for dinner tonight?”

The moment it left her mouth she regretted it. He stiffened underneath her and his hands stilled.

“Jon?”

“No.”

Coming up onto her elbows, she looked into stormy eyes.

“Why not? Don’t you think its time to talk this through? Your mother is sorry for what she had done.”

Clamping his hands around her arms, he pushed her off him. Turning his back on her, he placed his feet on the ground.

“Baby..dont push, ok? I’m not ready.”

“But Jon ..”

Shooting off the bed he swung around.

“I said don’t push me Megan. Dammit! I’m not ready to forgive her and frankly I don’t know if I ever will.”

She saw the warning in his eyes and shook her head as she closed the space between them.

“Ok..I wont push. But Angel this is going to eat you alive until you’ve learned to forgive. She is your mother.”

Shaking her hand off his shoulder he looked at her accusingly.

“So I take it mommy dearest got through to you? Strange how the person she most despised, forgave her first.” His blue eyes were icy.

“That’s not fair Jon. Not fair at all.” Hurt by his rejection she went to her wardrobe to start her day.

“What is fair? Was it fair that she fucked with MY life? Was it fair that I fell in love with a little boy cause I thought he was mine?
What is fair Megan..YOU TELL ME!”

Anger spewed from her

“No Jon none of its fair! Don’t you think we all suffered for it? Me and the kids? But life doesn’t stand still Jon and I not going to stay behind. I cant live with hatred and regret everyday. So you do what you need to do, I respect that. I wasn’t expecting you back so soon, so we arranged a little get together with the kids. Your parent adore your kids Jon and I know you miss Jesse but you have two of your own kids to, you know. Everyday you feel sorry for yourself you miss something small. Why don’t you think about that?

“I think about it Megan..EVERY FUCKING DAY! My head hurts from all the thinking and I don’t want to think anymore.”

Coming closer to him, he smelled her scent, felt her warmth as she put her arms around him.

“I love you Jon. Healing takes time, I know. But don’t push us away, ok? That wont be fair. Jesse might not be here but we are.” Hugging him to her for a moment, she reached and left a swift kiss on his unyielding lips. Should I call Carol and cancel?”

“No..you go ahead. I’ll be here, there is a lot to do.”

Sighing she nodded.

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“He’s back!? Oh Megan, I’m so happy! Is he looking well? Do you think I should see him?”

Giving Jaden another packet of peanuts to feed the greedy goats at the petting zoo, she turned towards Carol.”

“I don’t think it will be such a good idea, right now. He’s not ready yet.”

Carol’s eyes brimmed with tears.

“He hates me, doesn’t he? He will never forgive me for what I have done.”

“Give him time Carol, he’ll come around. You know Jon. He isn’t a hateful person. He’ll work through it You’ll see.”